Today, I joyfully spent the morning and early afternoon being productive. I finally got around to doing some much needed cleaning and organizing (while dancing like an idiot to all kinds of random music, of course). I baked a practice wedding cake for a friend who will be getting married in less than a month. I imported about fifty cds onto my computer. Then, I gratefully spent the late afternoon and early evening relaxing by watching some tv and taking a nap. By the time I woke up, I was completely relaxed and decided that I would venture out into the real world with real people.
I was only in the real world for about five minutes when I was hit with a heavily weighted question that quite confused me. I was asked the question:
“Do you believe in God?”
My immediate reaction was to laugh. Why? Because this person might as well have been asking me what my first name was. You see, this person knows without a shadow of a doubt that I DO believe in God. I don’t just believe in a god, but I believe in the one TRUE God. Once I realized that this person was not joking, I replied with a simple, “yes.” Of course there was more to follow and the conversation steered towards the question of why we are here, why we believe in God, and how we believe in God.
Conversations like this always make me truly think about my walk with God. Those kinds of questions are so difficult to answer, because God is not a concrete object. I cannot say that I believe in God because I can see Him or touch Him. So, why do I believe in God? I started to think about all of the times that God has made Himself known to me. He has given me peace with some of the most difficult decisions I have had to made. He has laid a passion on my heart to serve children. He has led me to the same verse over and over again for a month straight just so that I could get the picture that He loves me.
In the end, I do not have a solid answer to give when asked why I believe in God. However, I DO believe in God. I believe in Him with my whole heart and I wish to serve Him with my entire life. I know I fail daily, but I also know that He waits with an outstretched arm, ready to pick me up whenever I am ready. I seek to glorify Him in everything I do; it is not an easy task and I lose sight all of the time, but the desire is real. I know I need to do some serious soul searching and spend time in prayer; because one day, someone is going to ask me why I believe in God and the answer, “Because I do,” will not cut it. I never want to be the reason that someone gives up on pursuing God. I want to be able to answer with such passion and honesty that they feel the same desire to become closer to the Heavenly Father that I feel.